Small Things Before they Became Big Things

I don't know if liking digital art and having an iPad or a wacom tablet are correlated. Because whenever I did digital art, it was using my laptop's track pad on Illustrator, where I barely knew how to use the 10001 tools and spent hours using it like MS Paint. Naturally, I'm not a fan of it.

Made this one in the pandemic, and I remember my mom wondering what's artsy about this. But what would've taken me hours to get right - the proportions and colours - with pencil and paint, took me only an hour to do digitally, because everything's just there, ready. Regardless, it reminds me of my early years in college, where I was experimenting with design and illustration, trying to figure out if there's something interesting I can find to latch on to as a career possibility. But it eventually fettered out because of bigger internships and managing roles in college teams, and one day, suddenly, I hadn't done design in 3 years.

I think that's something I - we - need to probably consciously think about. It's so easy to lose sight of the small pleasurable things that don't usually reap productive or economic benefits for the bigger things that usually do. But while the latter is important, the smaller things are the ones that fill the gaps in the mundane with pockets of warmth, making them just as important too.

I guess the whole purpose of this account was to this end, now that I think about it.